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Other characters currently played: Dave Strider, Chara, Kyouko Sakura
Character name: Ellen; pretends to be Viola
Age: Centuries old.
Canon: The Witch's House
Canonpoint: Diary of Ellen, end of chapter three.
Background: here.
Personality:
Ellen is, in quite a few ways, the victim of her circumstances. Born a sickly child with a mysterious skin disease that ate away at her limbs, Ellen felt that she was nothing more than a burden to her own parents. Her father could not bring himself to look her in the eye, and her mother's love for her was a tenuous, fragile thing stretched to its thinnest point by the mental and physical exhaustion of having to take care of a daughter who was incapable of looking and behaving like other children. As a result, Ellen gained an immense inferiority complex and came to believe that she should never voice her own desires, instead quietly acquiescing to the desires of those around her. She believed this was necessary for her continued survival, and so she gave up even her most basic rights as a human being.
This begins to change when Ellen comes into contact with the demon and makes a contract with it in exchange for another chance at life. With the demon's magic, Ellen finally gets a taste of what a normal life is like. For the first time, she knows what things could have been like for her if she'd grown up under normal circumstances. The pain in her joints subsides, and she learns what it's like to not be in constant agony. The physical effects of her illness that made everyone fear and revile her so leave, and she sees for herself the drastic difference in treatment she receives. Most of all, she has the freedom to move around and do as she pleases.
This marks the change in her outlook; when she loses all of this, she cannot bear it. Although she lived most of her life without these things, she did not acutely feel her own misery, because her miserable life circumstances were all she ever knew. Thus, after realizing just what she's been missing out on her entire life, she turns into the goal-driven, cruel witch who will do anything to get what she wants.
Ellen is a bundle of contradictions. Much of this has to do with the fact that there are many parts of her that she does not want to admit. She does not want to confront her own weaknesses, and so she denies that they exist. In some cases, she even forces herself to forget parts of her own past in order to aid in her denial. Her mental deterioration also accounts for some of her actions, however, as she begins to have more and more difficulty making sense of her own past.
This is most visibly seen in Ellen's definition of "friendship." Although one of her primary motivations is finding a friend, she cannot keep a consistent view of what she expects of her friends. At one moment, friends are simply stepping stones; people who should die for her so that she can get what she wants. Yet, at another, she states that she wishes for someone whom she can learn to love and who will love her in return.
As can be seen, the truth teeters somewhere in between the two extremes; Ellen does care for her friends, and so killing them brings her pain, as much as she might deny it - the way she denies ever feeling regret for any of her actions - but there's still an insecurity in every one of her actions. After being abandoned by both her parents and her first friend - and after being betrayed by the demon - she now fears giving anyone too much power over her. Even as she comes to care for someone deeply, she still stays on guard around them, because she knows that the more deeply she cares for someone the bigger their capability to truly, deeply hurt her becomes.
Ultimately, Ellen is still very much a child who was deprived of affection and attention and thus yearns desperately for it. In the name of obtaining love, all else is insignificant. In the name of attention, she will hurt and kill and put herself in harm's way, as evidenced by the fact that she purposefully allows some of her victims to escape with their lives so that they can spread her name far and wide (this at the cost of attracting the attention of many witch hunters). She is horribly lonely and has been her entire life, and this is the defining trait that motivates her. Every single one of her actions is spurred by a desire to be loved. However, due to her upbringing, her definition of "love" has become irrevocably twisted. She believes that love is manipulation - bending another person to her will and making them suffer emotionally and physically so that they will pay more and more attention to her (and her alone). Even when, at the end of her canon, she finally does succeed in obtaining a father who will love her unconditionally, it is implied that she will still go on to hurt him because she can no longer grasp the idea of a love that is not based in pain.
Wish: "I... I want to live."
During the canonpoint I've chosen, Ellen is in a very precarious position. Although a witch's body can endure countless torment, a witch's heart cannot. Ellen's heart was injured, and due to that, her body started to fall apart. Even magic could no longer stop the progression of her illness, and she came to realize that if she did not do something fast, she would soon die.
Ellen has clung to life for centuries. Despite all the suffering that she's endured, she's never lost her desire to live. It was this desire that led to her first contract with the cat demon, and so it seems only appropriate that her desire to live inevitably pulls her into a contract with Kyuubey.
Ellen's wish would be granted by turning her into a magi. As a magi, she would truly be cured of her illness.
Passive ability: The ability to shapeshift into Viola. Although the demon promised Ellen a cure for her illness, what it offered her instead was a bodyswapping spell. Said spell required a strong bond of trust and consent from both parties, which Ellen believed she might be able to acquire from Viola, who was naive, trusting, and altogether too compassionate. Viola was Ellen's last hope for survival before Kyuubey came along. Thus, Ellen associates Viola's body heavily with her chances of living.
Active ability: The ability to manipulate and weaponize roses, which would allow Ellen to control their growth and extend their vines into whips with which to attack her enemies. In her canon, roses are the lifeblood of a witch. Roses bloom in response to each soul that the witch claims, and the roses themselves are made of blood vessels that are connected to the witch. It is said that if a witch's flowers wilt, then the witch will die. As a result, Ellen's wish to live would give her control over the one thing that is strongly tied to her life.
Weapon: a rose.
Sample: here.
Contact info:
Other characters currently played: Dave Strider, Chara, Kyouko Sakura
Character name: Ellen; pretends to be Viola
Age: Centuries old.
Canon: The Witch's House
Canonpoint: Diary of Ellen, end of chapter three.
Background: here.
Personality:
Ellen is, in quite a few ways, the victim of her circumstances. Born a sickly child with a mysterious skin disease that ate away at her limbs, Ellen felt that she was nothing more than a burden to her own parents. Her father could not bring himself to look her in the eye, and her mother's love for her was a tenuous, fragile thing stretched to its thinnest point by the mental and physical exhaustion of having to take care of a daughter who was incapable of looking and behaving like other children. As a result, Ellen gained an immense inferiority complex and came to believe that she should never voice her own desires, instead quietly acquiescing to the desires of those around her. She believed this was necessary for her continued survival, and so she gave up even her most basic rights as a human being.
This begins to change when Ellen comes into contact with the demon and makes a contract with it in exchange for another chance at life. With the demon's magic, Ellen finally gets a taste of what a normal life is like. For the first time, she knows what things could have been like for her if she'd grown up under normal circumstances. The pain in her joints subsides, and she learns what it's like to not be in constant agony. The physical effects of her illness that made everyone fear and revile her so leave, and she sees for herself the drastic difference in treatment she receives. Most of all, she has the freedom to move around and do as she pleases.
This marks the change in her outlook; when she loses all of this, she cannot bear it. Although she lived most of her life without these things, she did not acutely feel her own misery, because her miserable life circumstances were all she ever knew. Thus, after realizing just what she's been missing out on her entire life, she turns into the goal-driven, cruel witch who will do anything to get what she wants.
I felt my cheeks ache, and I touched them. Was it regret? Surely not. It was just loneliness.
Ellen is a bundle of contradictions. Much of this has to do with the fact that there are many parts of her that she does not want to admit. She does not want to confront her own weaknesses, and so she denies that they exist. In some cases, she even forces herself to forget parts of her own past in order to aid in her denial. Her mental deterioration also accounts for some of her actions, however, as she begins to have more and more difficulty making sense of her own past.
This is most visibly seen in Ellen's definition of "friendship." Although one of her primary motivations is finding a friend, she cannot keep a consistent view of what she expects of her friends. At one moment, friends are simply stepping stones; people who should die for her so that she can get what she wants. Yet, at another, she states that she wishes for someone whom she can learn to love and who will love her in return.
She had sacrificed so many people for her desire.
She crushed human skulls like a child stepping on ants. But I also knew how it brought her agony.
All the people who died for her were her friends.
As can be seen, the truth teeters somewhere in between the two extremes; Ellen does care for her friends, and so killing them brings her pain, as much as she might deny it - the way she denies ever feeling regret for any of her actions - but there's still an insecurity in every one of her actions. After being abandoned by both her parents and her first friend - and after being betrayed by the demon - she now fears giving anyone too much power over her. Even as she comes to care for someone deeply, she still stays on guard around them, because she knows that the more deeply she cares for someone the bigger their capability to truly, deeply hurt her becomes.
Ultimately, Ellen is still very much a child who was deprived of affection and attention and thus yearns desperately for it. In the name of obtaining love, all else is insignificant. In the name of attention, she will hurt and kill and put herself in harm's way, as evidenced by the fact that she purposefully allows some of her victims to escape with their lives so that they can spread her name far and wide (this at the cost of attracting the attention of many witch hunters). She is horribly lonely and has been her entire life, and this is the defining trait that motivates her. Every single one of her actions is spurred by a desire to be loved. However, due to her upbringing, her definition of "love" has become irrevocably twisted. She believes that love is manipulation - bending another person to her will and making them suffer emotionally and physically so that they will pay more and more attention to her (and her alone). Even when, at the end of her canon, she finally does succeed in obtaining a father who will love her unconditionally, it is implied that she will still go on to hurt him because she can no longer grasp the idea of a love that is not based in pain.
Wish: "I... I want to live."
During the canonpoint I've chosen, Ellen is in a very precarious position. Although a witch's body can endure countless torment, a witch's heart cannot. Ellen's heart was injured, and due to that, her body started to fall apart. Even magic could no longer stop the progression of her illness, and she came to realize that if she did not do something fast, she would soon die.
Ellen has clung to life for centuries. Despite all the suffering that she's endured, she's never lost her desire to live. It was this desire that led to her first contract with the cat demon, and so it seems only appropriate that her desire to live inevitably pulls her into a contract with Kyuubey.
Ellen's wish would be granted by turning her into a magi. As a magi, she would truly be cured of her illness.
Passive ability: The ability to shapeshift into Viola. Although the demon promised Ellen a cure for her illness, what it offered her instead was a bodyswapping spell. Said spell required a strong bond of trust and consent from both parties, which Ellen believed she might be able to acquire from Viola, who was naive, trusting, and altogether too compassionate. Viola was Ellen's last hope for survival before Kyuubey came along. Thus, Ellen associates Viola's body heavily with her chances of living.
Active ability: The ability to manipulate and weaponize roses, which would allow Ellen to control their growth and extend their vines into whips with which to attack her enemies. In her canon, roses are the lifeblood of a witch. Roses bloom in response to each soul that the witch claims, and the roses themselves are made of blood vessels that are connected to the witch. It is said that if a witch's flowers wilt, then the witch will die. As a result, Ellen's wish to live would give her control over the one thing that is strongly tied to her life.
Weapon: a rose.
Sample: here.